Lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking. Trying to sort out some weird feelings I've been having. Even though they're my feelings, I really can't make as much sense of them as I'd like to. But here's what I've figured out:
To me, what I seek in relationships isn't so much a physical connection as an emotional one. Someone I can spill all my secrets to, not just make out with. Lately, I've been noticing a certain person about once a day around 10:12 in the morning. At first it was recognition, but now it's become what I guess you might call attraction. Not completely romantic attraction, but the other definition too. A feeling of being drawn toward something. Or someone.
This certain attractive person happens to be a girl as well.
This is where it gets complicated. It seems I find myself "attracted" (again, in the drawn to sense not the romantic sense) to a different people all the time, and I really can't explain why. It's so strange I can't even come up with a good metaphor for it.
Maybe this will be explained soon. Maybe not. All I know is it's probably just a phase, or hormones, or something.
Most likely no one will ever read this, much less anybody who knows me. But it just feels good to feel like I'm telling someone. Sometimes just talking to a wall that won't say anything back or think differently about you is just what you need.
Maybe this will be explained soon. Maybe not. All I know is it's probably just a phase, or hormones, or something.
Most likely no one will ever read this, much less anybody who knows me. But it just feels good to feel like I'm telling someone. Sometimes just talking to a wall that won't say anything back or think differently about you is just what you need.
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